Gwen Stefani is once again opening up about the end of her marriage to Gavin Rossdale in a new interview with Harper's Bazaar. "It was the beginning of hell. Like six, seven, eight months of torture, trying to figure out this big secret," Stefani says of her discovery in February 2015 ("February 9," to be exact, she says: "I obviously know the date.") that Rossdale had allegedly cheated with the couple's nanny. One of the worst parts: She now only sees her three boys part-time because of her custody arrangement with Rossdale. "My kids are taken away like half the time, so that was really like, 'What?! What did I do?'" she says.
Then, she returned to the set of The Voice. "There I was with my big secret, right? And that's when [fellow judge] Blake [Shelton] was like, 'Everybody, before we go out there, I want to let everyone know that by the time this airs, I will be divorced,'" Stefani recalls. His announcement made her feel "exposed somehow, you know? But it was like being handed this gift of a friend who was going through the exact same thing at the exact same time." A friend who, of course, soon turned into Stefani's new partner. "It went from horrible to, like, hopeful and, like, 'Wow, God, you just don't know what's gonna happen next.'" Click for the full interview.