Once again, Patton Oswalt has offered a devastatingly honest peek into his mind following the sudden death of his wife, Michelle McNamara, in April. It's been 102 days, he wrote on Facebook Monday night, and he has nothing to show for it except "solid knowledge of fear, exhaustion, and a new appreciation for the randomness and horror of the universe." Well, that and the kindness he's been shown by family, friends, and even strangers who have sent him letters he reads again and again because of "how helpful they are." After weeks of being "face-down and frozen," now he's crawling, and maybe in another 102 days "I'll be walking," he writes.
McNamara left behind "an amazing unfinished book, about a horrific series of murders that everyone—including the retired homicide detectives she worked with—was sure she'd solve," Oswalt writes. "The Golden State Killer. She gave him that name, in an article for Los Angeles Magazine. She was going to figure out the real name behind it." Instead, Oswalt is finishing the book, with help from others, and he assures fans it will be published. "It's all her," he writes. "We're just taking what's there and letting it tell us how to shape it. It's amazing." Read his full note, in which he promises to "start being funny again soon" because "what other choice do I have," here.