Jennifer Hudson: Family Murders 'a Blur, Surreal'
She talks about deaths for the first time
By Evann Gastaldo,  Newser Staff
Posted Jun 29, 2010 10:08 AM CDT
Actress Jennifer Hudson poses during a photocall for "Winnie", at the 63rd international film festival, in Cannes, southern France, Saturday, May 15, 2010.   (AP Photo/Matt Sayles)
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(Newser) – On her Behind the Music special last night, Jennifer Hudson spoke out for the first time about the 2008 murders of her mother, brother, and nephew. "It's all a blur, it was surreal," she says, adding that she stayed in one room for two weeks “with just family and friends coming in and out. I prayed when I'd get up in the morning and prayed before I laid down at night."

She was thinking about her family when she sang “You Pulled Me Through” at the 2009 Grammys, People reports. “I could hear my brother in my head, like, 'Jennifer, you need to kill this, you need to get up and do it.'" She's healing with the help of her 11-month-old son David, who reminds her of her nephew and her mother: "In so many ways I channel her because she was such a great mom."