The handsome British calvary officer who had an affair with Princess Diana contemplated suicide when their five-year relationship became public, he revealed. "I got in my car to go to France—to shoot myself," James Hewitt told Inside Edition. But his mother insisted on accompanying him. If she hadn't "I would have probably shot myself. So I owe her my life." Hewitt said he "felt I had let people down—myself, my family, my friends, the nation, the army, my regiment." He collaborated on a book about their affair, Princess in Love.
He told Entertainment Tonight that Diana would not have slept with him if Charles had been faithful. Some people have speculated that Hewitt is Prince Harry's father because of some striking similarities in their appearance. “No I am not" Harry's real father, said Hewitt, who added that his affair with Diana began after Harry's birth. "I am not happy talking about it," he added. As for Diana, "I think we all miss her," he said. "But I've tried to move on with my life." He said she would be "very proud" of William's upcoming marriage.