Woman Dying of Cancer Fears She'll Never Find Her Son Bernice Abeyta says searching for Christopher has kept her going By Michael Harthorne, Newser Staff Posted Oct 7, 2016 1:16 PM CDT 16 comments Comments Christopher Abeyta disappeared from his crib in 1986. (National Center for Missing & Exploited Children) (Newser) – In May, 73-year-old Bernice Abeyta was given less than eight months to live, dying from a rare form of cancer, ABC News reports. Before that happens, she says she wants closure on the baby who disappeared from his crib 30 years ago in Colorado. Abeyta says searching for her son Christopher, who was 7 months old the last time his family saw him in 1986, is "what kept me going." She tells CBS Denver that losing Christopher was "like I lost my future." Her daughter, Denise Alves, says her mother's "greatest fear" is dying without knowing what happened to her baby. "It changed her forever," Alves tells ABC. Abeyta tells Fox 21 that she still pictures daily what it would be like to see Christopher again. Alves says her mother has been tirelessly searching for Christopher ever since she woke up one morning to find his crib in her room empty. "Maybe the answer isn't what we hoped for, that he's alive, but she'll leave knowing, and we can be at peace and finally put him to rest," Alves tells ABC. While Abeyta says she still wants justice for Christopher, her cancer diagnosis has given her some perspective. "It was a good life," she tells Fox. "It was one very very horrible, horrendous thing that happened to us." She plans on recording a message for Christopher in case he's found after she's gone. Police had a person of interest in the case but never made any arrests. Abeyta, who failed a lie detector test in the wake of Christopher's disappearance, was successfully sued for defamation after accusing her husband's mistress, KRDO reports.