In a clip from Chris Brown's new documentary, Chris Brown: Welcome to My Life, that is currently making headlines, the singer describes how his "fairytale" romance with Rihanna turned to a nightmare, Rolling Stone reports. After he lied to her about cheating on her in the early days of their relationship, "she just didn't trust me after that," Brown says. "From there, it just went downhill because there were too many verbal fights, physical fights as well. Mutual sides. … We would fight each other. She would hit me, I would hit her and it never was OK." On the night of Clive Davis' Grammys party in 2009, the woman Brown had cheated with approached them at the party, and things went horribly downhill.
Brown says that after leaving the party, he gave an upset Rihanna his phone to look through, but instead of reassuring her, Rihanna saw a text from the other woman and got even angrier. "She starts going off, she throws the phone," Brown says. "Starts hitting me. We're in a little Lamborghini. She's fighting me. I'm like, 'Look, I'm telling you the truth, I swear.' ... She hits me a couple of more times and it doesn't go from translation to, 'Let's sit down, I'm telling you the truth.' It goes to, 'Now, I'm going to be mean, be evil.' I remember she tried to kick me, but then I really hit her, with a closed fist, I punched her. I busted her lip. When I saw it, I was in shock. I was like, 'F---, why the hell did I hit her?'" But the fight continued, with Brown even biting Rihanna at one point. He says that in the aftermath of the beating, "I felt like a f---ing monster. ... That's going to haunt me forever."