For a few weeks, Meghan McCain kept quiet on a "horrendous experience" she had suffered. No more. In a piece for the New York Times, the View co-host goes public with the news that after learning "many months ago" that she was pregnant, she recently suffered a miscarriage, learning of it the day of this photoshoot. She initially intended to grieve privately, but ultimately decided to bring awareness to just how "distressingly common" miscarriage is—she gives the figure of 3 million pregnancies lost is in the US annually. But she's not just trying to destigmatize the experience; she also gets extremely personal about the thoughts that followed her loss. The question that has dogged her: Why? "I blamed myself," she writes.
"Perhaps it was wrong of me to choose to be a professional woman, working in a high-pressure, high-visibility, high-stress field, still bearing the burden of the recent loss of my father and facing on top of that the arrows that come with public life. This is not a complaint. This is reality. I blamed my age [Fox News notes she is 34], I blamed my personality. I blamed everything and anything a person could think of, and what followed was a deep opening of shame. This, I told myself, is the reason my body is a rock-strewn wasteland in which no child may live. This is my fault." And yet she knows it isn't, and writes that she knows life and death are not within our control or understanding. She closes by writing of the love she has, and will endlessly have, for her child—a girl. (Read her full piece here.)