Kidnapped American: 'How Do I Get Them to Shoot Me?'

California woman Gayle Endicott appears on CBS This Morning
By Neal Colgrass,  Newser Staff
Posted Apr 27, 2019 12:40 PM CDT

(Newser) – An American kidnapped in Uganda says she felt a human connection with her captors but also contemplated how to get herself killed. Appearing on CBS This Morning, Gayle Endicott went into detail about her 5-day April ordeal and described a moment when she, her guide, and four captors were crossing the Ugandan border into Democratic Republic of Congo at night: "And I look up in the sky and I see the most beautiful sky I've ever seen in my life," she told the show's co-host, Gayle King, per CBS News. She urged her captors to "look at the sky," she said, and told them "we don't have this at home." Then she made it her "mission" to see their humanity and make them see hers. "I just start talking to them like I'm talking to you," said the California esthetician. Among other highlights:

  • "At one point I'm asked to get up" after lying on the ground in exhaustion, she said. "And I turn and look and they've made a tent for me out of tarps and a mosquito net, which, I remember that was the moment where I thought, 'Why are they taking such good care of me?'"
  • "How could I not?" she said when asked if felt for her captors, who drank water from a hole in the ground, adding that "it's not really above living like an animal. That's their life. ... That does not condone what they did. Not even close."
  • "They could've sold me to a different group," she said. "When I went out in the open they had guns that also protected me. It could've been so much worse than it was."
  • Endicott said she was "constantly" worried about the men attacking her, per CBS News. She says she thought, "How do I get them to shoot me? And just shoot me instead of dismembering me or raping me? How do I do that?"

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