Chrissy Teigen, drinking Red Bull instead of wine or a cocktail during a recent brunch appearance, explains to Cosmopolitan that she recently decided to work on her health. "I was, point blank, just drinking too much," she explains in a frank interview. It became routine to have a glass of wine while getting her hair and makeup done, then another before the awards show, then more at the awards show ... and so on and so on. "And then I felt bad for making kind of an ass of myself to people that I really respected. And that feeling, there's just nothing like that. You feel horrible. It's not a good look for me, for John, for anybody." She and husband John Legend, who are planning to do IVF again soon in the hopes of having another baby, went on a wellness retreat in Bali, where she didn't drink at all and felt wonderful.
Now that she's back home in LA, she's not sure how to navigate her scene, in which alcohol is often around, but she's considering abstaining entirely. She "can't just have one drink," she explains, and with a family history of alcohol abuse plus the medications for postpartum depression and anxiety she's taking, she's concerned about where things could go if she kept drinking to excess. She notes that no one in her circle seemed to think she had a problem, but "I knew in my heart it wasn't right." "I used to think it was kind of nutty to have to go totally sober, but now I get it. I don't want to be that person," she adds. "I have to fix myself." Many readers thanked her for her honesty. Sample Twitter response: "Totally went through the same thing a few months ago. Women should be discussing it more." Scary Mommy echoes that, noting "sometimes it feels like motherhood and wine memes go hand in hand." (Read more Chrissy Teigen stories.)