It was the social media message that was never supposed to see the light of day. Now, the family of late Love Island host Caroline Flack, found dead Saturday of an apparent suicide, has revealed an unpublished Instagram post by the 40-year-old. The release of her words came just before an inquest into her death opened Wednesday, the BBC reports. "Within 24 hours my whole world and future was swept from under my feet," were Flack's words, which her family published in full via the Eastern Daily Press. Flack, who was set to go on trial in March for allegedly assaulting her boyfriend, Lewis Burton—who didn't want the charges against her to continue—added that she wasn't a "domestic abuser," that the incident that happened between herself and Burton was an "accident," and that she was sorry for everything her family had gone through.
"The reason I am talking today is because my family can't take anymore," she wrote. "I've lost my job. My home. My ability to speak. And the truth has been taken out of my hands and used as entertainment." "She so wanted to have her little voice heard," Flack's mother tells the BBC, adding that her daughter sent her in January the words she wanted to publish and noted her advisers had warned her against posting them. Sky News notes that Flack's official last Instagram post, published Thursday, showed her in a series of photos with her dog, along with a heart emoji. The Guardian notes the inquest into Flack's death has now been adjourned until August. "Carrie was surrounded by love and friends, but this was just too much for her," her mother tells the BBC. Read Flack's final words in full here. (Paramedics were called to Flack's home just hours before she died.)